I am stressed

Apparently.

I really don't have a ton of reason to be stressed out. I'm not even teaching right now, but I think all the stress of my life has finally caught up with me now that I have a chance to breathe...kind of. I've seriously developed a nervous twitch. Every time I sneeze my eyes twitches furiously.....and I've been sneezing a lot, and now my eye is starting to twitch on its own. I'm worried.
Not really.

But seriously, I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I have been non-stop applying for jobs and trying to get everything in order for interviewing...that I'm starting to lose it, subconciously, because I really am like happy right now. I don't necessarily feel stressed, yet I know I am. I suppose it's because I've been stressed out for over a year now. I'm not exaggerating, I am being serious....lets take a look at what I've done the past year shall we?

Spring semester 2008:
-Started the partnership program = 19 credit hours
+
making lesson plans for the first time for partnership program
+
3 more credit hours for my junior writing course
Grand total of credit hours= 21 hours= junior status as a sophomore...what what!?

extra credit: Worked 15-17 hours as a waitress at Little America, closed many nights, would average getting to bed around midnight.
....woke up at 6:45am

January 2008 (runs concurrently with spring semester 2008)
I contracted mononucleosis (known as the kissing disease)...thought I was going to die...yet STILL went to school and taught 6th grade every day.

Summer 2008
-Took 12 credit hours at CGCC
-Went to class daily
-Wasn't really that hard, however...
-I took philosophy....STUPIDEST CLASS EVER...got a B
+worked at Salerno's did a lot of reading while at work for forementioned class.

Extra credit:
My wonderful beautiful cousin Courtney was killed in a car accident in June....in the middle of my busy school schedule. Luckily I had very forgiving professors.
And I volunteered at church...a lot.

Fall 2008
Continued Partnership program= 21 credit hours
+
writing lesson plans....still, at least I am a little bit faster now
+
Kickboxing and self-defense classes= 2 credit hours = 23 credit hours = senior status at beginning of Junior year...what what!!?

Extra credit:
Worked two jobs: 3 hours a week at Morton (boo) and 15 hours at Abundant Life Preschool + being a youth coach at CCOF (done since october 2008) however it was stepped up this semester + Texas wedding the SAME EXACT week of midterms = taking a midterm in the car one the way from South Padre Island to Brownsville.
bonus: took the AEPA tests...awesome

Spring 2009:
Student teaching.....nuff said.
Lesson plans, unit plans, observations, papers, being snowed in at Mund's Park
+
HORRIBLE economy and teacher cuts
+
trying to find a job and get certified and make a portfolio
= stressed out

Extra credit: Working 6 hours a week = no money = more stress


Awesome
:)

He Is Risen!

He is risen indeed! Happy Easter y'all! I love this holiday, it gives me the greatest reason to rejoice. If it had not been for Jesus' death and resurrection I would be without hope. Easter is one of my favorite holidays because of that hope. Exciting weekend so far. Yesterday spent a good amount of time with the girls from partnership and then had a birthday party with Hannah. I love that girl, and I miss her so much. I feel like we've reconnected again and I love that feeling. This weekend has just been a good weekend overall. Having a good weekend this weekend makes me feel a bit better about moving back home for a while.
Yes, I am moving back in with the rents for a while, I am not sure till when or whatever, but I know I can't move on my own now. It'll be kind of hard, independence wise, but it'll be great economically and I have missed my family. God has a plan, so its all good.
I can't believe I only have 2 more weeks after friday of teaching left in 6th grade. I'm going to be so sad. I wish I could just stay. My kids have been difficult lately, but I still will miss them..
Also, growing up is weird. I just need to say that. I'll be 21 next month, I didn't think it'd feel like this. I dunno, I just don't feel as old as my age....can I stay 21 forever?

Elliptical Reflections

As I was working out a couple hours ago, I went into my workout "bubble" if you will and reflected on my life. My life is so up in the air right now. I have no idea what I am doing in a matter of weeks....yes weeks, what I am doing in the Fall, or anything. Thankfully I DO know that my heavenly Father has a plan, even when I don't. I should be freaking out right now, because I don't even have a job after the 8th of May and prospects are looking bleak. It's a scary time and while I do feel scared, I have peace.
I also should be upset too because I recently had a relationship end. While I am disappointed it didn't work out and I do miss having someone to take care of me, spend time with , and share a part of my life with, I am still extremely happy. Which is odd for me. I know there is a reason we didn't work out and that God has someone planned for specially for me, and I am excited to see who this person will be, and I know he will come. Its hard for me to remain still and patient, so god is working in me. Also, I think it makes it easier too because I know Derek and I can be friends, and I cherish that.
God is trying to teach me to live in the present and be happy in the present, and not always be waiting for the future. If I wait for the future all the time, how can I enjoy the present?
Oh btw, I went blonde again, this makes me happy. I always feel so much more sunnier when I am blonde. But I do get teased a lot more for "being blonde". I just realized today as I watching Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix, that I am like Luna Lovegood. I'm spacey at times. Oh well, that's me and I like me.