Sex and Chocolate

So, today my mind was having fantastical thoughts....as usual. And I began thinking about how lately I have been craving nothing but chocolate or something sweet and how it is almost impossible for me to not give into that temptation of finding something gooey, chocolately and amazing to stuff in my face. However, I know that if or more accurately, when I do actually eat that amazing, gooey, chocolately piece of heaven, I am going to immediately realize and regret it. Why? Because I know it is not good for me, and I know that it is going to just go straight to my hips. (Yay me!) So why do I continue to do it? Because at the time I think that if I don't give in, my craving is just going to stay with me and never ever ever ever leave until I give in. However, this is not true in reality.

I realized today, that this must be what men feel like in regards to sex. I think it is hard for women to understand what a power sex has over men, married and unmarried. So I guess the best way to understand it, is to put it in the context of our own cravings. IE:
chocolate is to girls as sex is to boys

like my analogy?
Anyway, as a single, christian woman, dating single, christian men, it is important for me to remember this, and have that affect how I dress and act. Because how I look or act can be like that piece of chocolate on the counter, tempting me to just take a little bite.....soon that little bite becomes the whole container of ice cream gone and the chocolate syrup bottle is half empty.
I dunno, maybe I am off and please feel free to correct me. These are just random thoughts that run through my mind.

The REAL me...

I feel that lately people have been either perceiving me incorrectly or don't completely understand me, or maybe I am just misrepresenting myself. So, to make it a little easier, I am compiling it into list format:

I am:

- A follower of Jesus Christ

-A woman

-A daughter, sister, niece, granddaughter, cousin, best friend

-I'm the most loyal friend you'll ever have, whether you want me or not usually.

- I can be hypocrite, without even realizing it. Sorry

- I am not perfect, as much as I try

-I struggle with my self image

-I have a lot of love to give, I just need the chance

-I could be more loving at the same time

- I am emotional, however I DO NOT cause nor do I want drama

- I feel so old and young at the same time

- I am angry/happy/scared when I drive

- I am still afraid of driving, and I no longer completely trust ANYONE who drives me around

- I'm addicted to texting, if it's not your form of communication just let me know

- It drives me INSANE when people are rude to me because they are annoyed, just let me know before it makes you upset enough to treat me wrongly, I will adjust my actions beforehand.

- I love my job, yet it is sooo incredibly hard at times, I wonder if God knew what he was doing, putting me in teaching.

- Be completely honest with me, I will be with you

- I hope to one day live in Colorado

- Don't call me judgmental, just because I don't support Gay marriage, Obama, Socialized health care, liberals, abortion, etc. I'm entitled to my beliefs too and it is possible for me to disagree with something and still love the people too.

- I try my best to not be clingy, but I am sure I fail miserably at times

- Flowers are the way to my heart

- Even though I complain a lot about my students, and they DO drive me nuts, I love them to death, and I know deep down, a lot of their problems are a result of neglect by their parents.

- I feel like I failed in someway because I am not a missionary, and I grew up believing I would be

- My true dream is to be a wife and mother

- If I feel our friendship/relationship is one sided, I will just leave you alone eventually, I don't have the energy for those relationships anymore

- I regret my whole freshman year of college, even though I grew the most from it

- I get jealous of pretty girls

- I feel my one truly beautiful feature about myself, is my hair and even that isn't always perfect

- I think I have a compassionate heart, and a kind heart, but the older I get the harder it is for me to constantly show it

- I will always be a daddy's girl

- I am not perfect, nor do I think I am, but I know I sometimes judge people for the same things I am technically guilty of

-I usually love who I am

- I just want to be accepted and loved

-I'm a recovering people pleaser

-I go through different styles constantly

-Don't attempt to resolve a conflict with me over text message...at least if you're a guy. It doesn't work.

- I have a lot of feelings, and I will write about them, you DON'T have to read them.