God..

I want this..
I want this so much...
I think I need to say that.

I don't care about the past...
I WANT THIS.

I'm making the decisions that I feel your letting me make and saying the things I need to say.

I WANT THIS.
With all my heart.

I just need a rant

Yesterday, my mom and I were out shopping in Flagstaff, because my mom loves me and she wants to buy things for me. Anyway, our friend Barb texted my mom telling her that the Highland High School (my alma mater) marching band wasn't going to be playing in the Gilbert Days parade because a student had been killed in a car accident involving a drunk driver. The girl was only 16 when she was taken. I didn't know her personally, but people I know knew her and she is from my high school...and it saddens me her life was taken so senselessly and suddenly. This is my rant.
Too many times people are killed by drunk drivers. TOO MANY. This issue has affected me personally and it breaks my heart when I hear of another young person taken because someone thought it was a good idea to get in a car after drinking. Who in their right mind would think it is ok to get in a car after they've been drinking? Honestly? We all know alcohol impairs judgement, so why do we get in cars after it? What gets me even more is that the driver that hit this girl and her brother was impaired at 6:30 in the MORNING! Who drinks in the morning? Obviously, they have a pathetic life and they are more pathetic for letting their pathetic lives cause them to take the life of a young girl and forever change an entire family. My heart breaks for the family, because I know what it's like to lose a loved one so suddenly like that.

Basically, just don't drink and drive, get a cab, call a friend, have a DD or something..be responsible, it is not that hard.

The little perks in life

My little perks are my students....today I decided that since I've been so stressed out lately and things have just turned out....not as expected, that I needed to destress and laugh a little more, even though generally I am a happy person. ANYWAY, I think I will add more to this list of truly inspirational quotes once I hear some more, today was a golden day though. Here are some memorable quotes from my kids today:

"Look I have boobies!"
~ "Caitlyn" 2 yrs old

"I accidentally got poo on the toilet!" (slightly gross, but her face was classic)
~ "Amy" 4 yrs old

"Teacher! Teacher! I feel like my head is sinking in!!!"
~ Mackenzie 4 yrs old

I must explain the last one I feel. Today Mackenzie and another kid bonked heads on the playground and she ran up to me, not even crying, and said that. I felt bad, because I could barely contain my laughter when she said that! She was so serious and gravely concerned! She did have a pretty big bump though, so we got some ice for her head, which she later decided to suck on in class and share with her friends.
Things I love about my job:

~ I get to color
~ The kids think I am the world greatest drawer, when in fact, I am awful
~ Kids make me smile and laugh, I love it
~ I have truly mastered the "look"
~ I get hugs, and I love hugs
~ I swing on swings on the playground
~ I get to play with playdough
~ I get told I am pretty at least once a day by a four year old
~ I ADORE being called teacher
~ The job is easy and I think it's fun

I LOVE my job.

Really God, REALLY?

I really must just laugh....I laugh because I am stressed beyond belief, I have that stupid AEPA test that I MUST past and I am freaking out cuz it is tomorrow morning and I don't feel ready...I have lesson plans, homework and projects...and now I may not be going to Europe at all....and that was a "closed door" sign for someone. Probably not the only reason, but still frustrating. But you know...I'm just rolling with it, cuz what else can I do? G-d you're so funny, like seriously. I pray something, I think I get the answer from you...and then different things happen. I just don't get it..so I am just going to roll with it. I will graduate, I will pass that horrible awful test called the AEPA, and I will student teach somewhere and someday I will find the right person for my life.

I would just like....some normalcy!

Words of Wisdom: Just roll with the punches!