It's been a while since I last updated on my life as of late. To be perfectly honest, I don't have a ton of time to do so. "Why?" you may ask, well, I have now officially become an adult, or so called adult, I have started my long awaited career of being a teacher. It is still weird to say that. Yes, I am a teacher. I am called Miss Nick 75% of my day,I grade papers, I teach teach teach, assess assess assess and go to stupid trainings for my whole weekend now. While my career is very rewarding and I love each and every one of my kids, my job is hard. It's only the second week and I am realizing thoroughly that I quite possibly could be way in over my head. There is just a lot to do and it is seemingly never ending.
But....
before I get too negative.....I love teaching. I love my kids, and they are MY kids. I was heartbroken that yesterday one of my kids was possibly hurt yesterday in my classroom and it broke my heart when one of my students said he was deducting points from his day because he was born. I see how desperate some of them are for attention and love and I hope they feel that I love them, value you them and care for them, even when they drive me up the wall. And maybe they may not become geniuses in my class, but I hope they at least feel appreciated. I hope somehow I make a difference, if it is only in a small way.
Obviously, my life is only teaching right now. I am trying to maintain a social life, but it was weird for a while. I'm dealing with a lot of drama that really isn't mine lately. It's been taking a toll on me, but I would rather help support others right now. The problem is that I am trying to be on two sides at once, and it's not very successful. I wish I could separate myself from the situation, but I am not going to do that, because that would require me to separate myself completely from the people involved. And I love the people involved.
It's just a lot....and hopefully I won't destroy any chance of me having a good thing with a certain person because....I really would like the chance.
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About Me
- Abby Gail
- I'm Abby and I have experiences that I feel will give others "empirical" knowledge (thanks philosophy 101) and I'm pretty cool. If you know me, congratulations...if you don't too bad for you. :( Get to know me.
3 comments:
That's so cool that you're a legit teacher! That sounds like a lot of fun! I can imagine how much fun it is to be surrounded by little kids who you help grow. What grade are you teaching?
5th grade! I love it, it's hard as heck, but I love it.
You are a grown-up Abby!! I can't wait to be one someday!
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